TEST OF LIFE

God I cannot find the way....
please show me the hope's ray  to hay ..

I am amidst of difficulties..
cannot find the way to come out of this mystery...

It's not that I have given up ...
but I need strength from you to continue..

Time seems to have come to a standstill..
don't know the tym when I'll be out of this miserable feel...

Is dreaming with open eyes a sin ?
I guess the patience in me has touched the brim..

God !! greatful to u  for my "never say die attitude"
but this situation seems to be a circle with no end

countless are the sacrifices I have , am and may give in future ..
but again the question stands .. will I be able to make my years long dream nurture ?

Standing at the place where present and future are entirely opposite..
One is my real world and the other is still a dream ..

The idea to choose one .. touched my intution ..
but conflict between practicality and dream doesn't let me reach the conclusion

still trying to balance present and future ..
and have no clue ..this is a right or wrong decision ..

Maybe I don't have that real gut power to leave the present and fall completely in love with the future plans
or maybe I am wise to implement the old saying "a bird in hand is better than two in bush "

Call it overambitious or call it a failure speaking ..
May b the hurdles are flowing some negative thoughts in me ..

but I promise u God , I'll fight back ..
all I want u to do is to give me strength to be on the right track..

IS THIS THE FOUR LETTER WORD ??

Didn't realize it .....till this very second...!!
ur words have the power to make me cry ..

have always saw u in jovial mood ..
and just felt ... ur possessiveness in those words of pry ..


Is this something new that has happened to me today ?
or is it some old omen , which I noticed at this moment !!


Never did I felt this concern before ..
was I blind to notice it ?? or ur care was too  much to be controlled !!

The more I think , I know u , the more I learn the unknown u ..
am I making u fall or in turn I am falling for u ??


I know I have the power to make u fall ,
but I'll love to see u rise for me !!

I can't promise , if I'll be always there with you ..
but yes the spirit will bind us ever and ever


Oh no... how can I fall prey to this so called love ?
I cannot trust someone and give him the right to take away my nerve !!

I can't ....I can't ....fall for u ..
something from within is trying harder and harder to make all this true !!