TEST OF LIFE

God I cannot find the way....
please show me the hope's ray  to hay ..

I am amidst of difficulties..
cannot find the way to come out of this mystery...

It's not that I have given up ...
but I need strength from you to continue..

Time seems to have come to a standstill..
don't know the tym when I'll be out of this miserable feel...

Is dreaming with open eyes a sin ?
I guess the patience in me has touched the brim..

God !! greatful to u  for my "never say die attitude"
but this situation seems to be a circle with no end

countless are the sacrifices I have , am and may give in future ..
but again the question stands .. will I be able to make my years long dream nurture ?

Standing at the place where present and future are entirely opposite..
One is my real world and the other is still a dream ..

The idea to choose one .. touched my intution ..
but conflict between practicality and dream doesn't let me reach the conclusion

still trying to balance present and future ..
and have no clue ..this is a right or wrong decision ..

Maybe I don't have that real gut power to leave the present and fall completely in love with the future plans
or maybe I am wise to implement the old saying "a bird in hand is better than two in bush "

Call it overambitious or call it a failure speaking ..
May b the hurdles are flowing some negative thoughts in me ..

but I promise u God , I'll fight back ..
all I want u to do is to give me strength to be on the right track..

IS THIS THE FOUR LETTER WORD ??

Didn't realize it .....till this very second...!!
ur words have the power to make me cry ..

have always saw u in jovial mood ..
and just felt ... ur possessiveness in those words of pry ..


Is this something new that has happened to me today ?
or is it some old omen , which I noticed at this moment !!


Never did I felt this concern before ..
was I blind to notice it ?? or ur care was too  much to be controlled !!

The more I think , I know u , the more I learn the unknown u ..
am I making u fall or in turn I am falling for u ??


I know I have the power to make u fall ,
but I'll love to see u rise for me !!

I can't promise , if I'll be always there with you ..
but yes the spirit will bind us ever and ever


Oh no... how can I fall prey to this so called love ?
I cannot trust someone and give him the right to take away my nerve !!

I can't ....I can't ....fall for u ..
something from within is trying harder and harder to make all this true !!

YARN OF LIFE

Almighty gave us lyf,a heart full of whims!

wend...wend...he says,with verve puzzles will trim !!

lyf ia a small word , full of charms of profundity!

purpose of which ,is to make you swing between hard wrk and destiny!!   

If all ur dreams would have come true in a single blow,

lyf's spice would have gone ,reducing it to a flop show!!

I want you to be vivacious , I want you to be sanguine!!

face all challenges boldly , and live like a king or Queen!!

I have filled ur life with bright and gloomy colors,

love them all , coz they will make you wiser in years!!

Lyf is a road full of  twist and turn ...

and as tym will move ..you  will learn...

you will learn , wht is hidden in this mystery!!

and each moment of your valiant willpower will create a history!!

woo !! woo !! , your efforts won't go in vain ,

atleast better then those who are  coward and insane!!

(c)Parul Sharma

21st -March-2012

WITH EVERY SECOND PASSING

With every second passing ...

I  am understanding lyf ...

 with evry test of ma patience ,

I am making myself more gracious .

 My dreams are chasing me every now and then ,

checking how passionate am  I to achieve them 

 this life give us moments of many ups and downs ..

millions of reasons to be happy and sometimes frown.. 

 With evry second passing ...

I  am understanding lyf ..

 on one side I have the frnds who give upteem moral support ,

 another side stand the crowd critcizing with their high pitch throat !!

 Both have their roles , both have importance ,

They teach me a balance chapter of tolerance .

 every relation comes with so many joys and sorrows ...

u never know what suprise they come up with , in nearby tommorow...

 Let ur dreams , thoughts and actions touch the sky..

but don't forget to stand on ur feet , rather than fly ..

 Remember !! the lesser u speak , the more world asks for explaination ..

if "luck by chance " happens then the same u ,  will be world's sensation ..

 With evry second passing ...

I  am understanding lyf ...

                                                                                                                         (c)Parul Sharma

                                                                                                                             12-June-2012

SISTERS

Blessed to have sisters,the greatest gift !!
unfeigned , reliable in this life full of twist !!

you were in my past ,you are in my present
with u I have evrything in lyf pleasant

thinking  of those days of childhood ,
ur sweet pampering to make me eat that nutritious  food .

I burst into laughter .....
when  I recall those sweet little games ,
chit chatting for hours , and ma ever changing  nick names

those festive days ,when we ate in the same plate
I miss each moment of those days coz they were really great..

Our engineer's style to set cable for those daily soaps ,
u monitoring TV's status , me fixing antenna on the roof

cannot forget how u used to teach me for my exam ,
the marks that I brought then had a different charm

all ma never ending  demands are fulfilled by u ,
u know all ma stories in depth .. rather than  just a clue

uncountable are those tyms when u saved me from Daddy's anger
and each tym same warning  --"This is ur last chance remember "

Sis, u pamper me like a doll
and call me "makhan ", even though now i am tall

A fear haunt me day n night ,
the day is not far when u'll be someone's bride

will you love me as you love me now ?
Dare to say 'no' and I will eat you like a "wada -pao"

Blessed 2 have sisters,the greatest gift !!
unfeigned , reliable in this life full of twist !!
                                                                                                        (c) Parul Sharma
                                                                                                         18th April 2012

DEDICATION TO FALAK

*****This poem of mine is a dedication to the 2 year old innocent girl Falak ,who was battered to death .

When small Falak was born in a home,
parents were happy , yet relatives mourn .

Ask the mother , who carried her in womb,
how she felt when Falak was battered and left numb.

Little Falak asks
"Mumma ,what was my fault ??
Why was I forced to face this assault  ??

Lucky was I, to live atleast for 2 years...
becozz many hapless children aren't even able to breathe this air .

Even if I would have won this battle of life ...
Who promise ?? i would have not been another gal to strive .

Like other girls ...i also aspired to study and gain knowledge !!
So that like an independent bird , I would have fledge !!

Like other girls ....i also wished to abate all your sorrows
I wanted to be the ray of hope for all your tommorow's "

My prayer to   you    Almighty....
Can the notion for girl child change slightly...??

Will she get , what she deserve ??
present hour say- "She's the gender to preserve" .

Let 's all abjure this social menace
or we'll be responsible for the end of human race !!



MAY HER SOUL REST IN PEACE !!
(c) Parul Sharma
  (15-03-2012)

सहेलियां

ये है सच्ची कहानी , इसे मजाक न समझना !
दो सहेली ढूंढ रही हैं ,अपना अपना सजना !!

उन दोनों में से सीता लिखती थी कविता ,
कविता का दर्द देख , गीता को हुई चिंता !!

पंक्तियाँ पढ़ ...गीता हो गयी परेशान !
कहीं इसे भी पसंद तो  नहीं है  ... मेरी ही जान !!

अपने डर को छुपाते हुए गीता ने पुछा ,
कोन है ? कोन है ? मुझे तो कोई भी न सूझा !!

"मुझे भी एक लड़का पसंद है " गीता बोली ,
मजाक समझ सीता बोली - " मुझे न दे तू गोली "  !!

जब चली उनकी वार्तालाप कुछ और देर !
सीता को समझ आया, गीता न रही थी उसे छेड !!

गीता ने तो  उसे सच्ची कथा सुनाई ,
गलत तो सीता थी , जो दर्द समझ न पायी !!

दोनों ने एक दूजे की पसंद का नाम पुछा ,
मन में गीता सोचे --" काश ...तेरा हो कोई दूजा "

शर्माती रही दोनों , कोई नाम न बताये !
धड़कने हुई तेज , सूझे न कोई उपाय  !!

दोनों सहेलियों ने फिर रास्ता निकाला ,
अपनी पसंद के नाम का फिर पहला अक्षर लिख डाला !!

साथ ही दोनों ने रक्खी एक शर्त ,
जानना है नाम तो  पहले करो दिमाग खर्च !!

एक दुसरे की पसंद के नाम का मरना है तुक्का ,
अगर नाम हुआ गलत , तो फिर ख़तम यहीं पे मुद्दा !!

दोनों सहेलियों  की दोस्ती थी गहरी  !
तुक्के भी लगे सही , खुली  राजो  की तिजोरी  !!

सुस्पेंसे तोडती सीता ने जैसे ही कहा  - 'अ'
मिली राहत गीता को , बोली --" मेरा वाला तो 'त' "

दिल को हल्का किया , दोनों ने अपनी गाथा सुनाई  !
करे अब  गहरा अध्यन की कैसे जाये एक दूजे की ग्रहस्ती बस्वायी  !!

दोस्तों ये कहानी नही सीता और गीता की ,
झाको अपने मन में तो पाओ आपनी ही किसी सहेली की !!

Introspecting !!!

                                                               Introspecting!!!

Am I that bad??  Am I that bad??
introspecting again and again ,
trying to find the reason of the pain.

Where is the peace of my mind lost??
Am I dreaming for future at present's cost??

Seems....as if ..time has come to standstill !!
and I find myself more crippled   !!

Am I a dolt ?? who could only shed tears!!
It seems my life is  now full of  vex and fears !!

Qualm ! Qualm ! please go away.
you have left me all puzzled and stray.

Known to be garrulous someday,
is not getting words to express the dismay.

Am I that bad ?? Am I that bad ??
introspecting again and again ,
trying to find the reason of the pain.

                                                         written on 15 Jan 2012

Why Prying???

Why ? Why ? Why?
I keep on prying?????

We have so much in common,yet nothing to share!!
You need not to speak,as your eyes express all care!!

How can two souls be so much alike?
My dreams are your goals ,and your goals are mine.

Fool was I ,who always ran from this feeling ,
and see the irony,I'm caught in this hearts dealing.

It was a short time,that we spent together,
but each memory is so fresh and shall remain so forever.

I am so childlike, garrulous and ingeneous
but will i be able to tell what i want to ..?? I am totally oblivious...

"Will we meet again?? " is the matter of destiny.
But my heart says that "Our story is written with unique profundity".

Why? Why? Why?
I keep on prying?????

-------------------------------------------on 19/02/2012