SHE SMILES

It's, a day before, since
    when, she suffers a heartache.
But, for social gathering, she puts
    on perfunctory smile, for name sake.

She wants to lament, for
     the wounds on her heart.
She has no choice then to
     act selfless and extrovert.

For it is her sister's marriage,
     she couldn't spoil her day.
Revering few times,giving that
     superficial smile, reassuring fay.

She smiles..She smiles..

Smiles, to bolster fake expression,
     to celebrate the day of dearest one.
Somewhere she hassles to manifest,
     impossible combo 'soul into dolmen'.

At night, she struggles to sleep,
     those memories bolts in her eyes.
The silent tears, that flows,
     poor pillow that doesn't dries.

She continues to skirmish between
    'quest for answers' or 'let go'.
To tell if she should seek
     those answers or simply forgo.

She smiles..She smiles..

She tells her heart, for
     the present is fine.
She now needs to choose
     between a smile or whine.

For the ones who knows
     her, could read her eyes.
Even if she lies..
     even if she lies..

Something has shattered
     within and is irreparable.
Her nights go sleepless,
     and she struggles to lull.

She smiles..She smiles..

Behind that smile,
     she hides all her pain.
but with million thoughts
     and memories, her smile wane.

She still has question and
      she eats her heart, for truth.
The umpteem false stories,
      she heard from that dude.

She console herself as
      she looks in the mirror,
Smiles ..she smiles,
      with another weak attempt.

She smiles..She smiles..

This time a little bold,
      a little bold play.
She smiles ..
      she smiles..

The quest in her eyes
     somehow wither her smile.
But, she smiles,
     she smiles all the while..


(c)PARUL SHARMA
23/feb/2017