THE BIRTHDAY WISHES ( A gift to a frnd for his girlfrnd :P)

You have  been special to me always …
To describe your  beauty , I run short of the phrase …

It’s not the appearance that matter to me ,
The beauty of your heart , is all I wanna see ..!!

I am perplexed , when I try to choose a gift for you ,
Can’t  find any materialistic thing that matches my love that is true !!

And I have nothing new , to gift you …
Will you accept my heart … will it do ??

And on this day , I wish to make your day special ,
To make you realize , that it’s only you who matter !!

Oh!! Did I speak all that I wanted to tell?
I feel , the dictionary fell short of words to describe it all so well  .

I cherish every moment we spent together ,
Wishing more and more for the same weather

Those rainy days , we went on walks …
And those never ,  never ending talks …!!

Hope , I did what I wanted to …
And that is to make you feel special , like I always do .

This is all  I want to say
Wish you a very very happy birthday !!

And they say it is " THE GAME OF TYM ".......

And they say it is the game of time !!

You exert and you work harder and harder , facing all barricades .
You face the criticism from the same people whose mouth was someday full of praise ..

You get small things with difficulty ..
even though in past you achieved things that were quite worthy ..

And they say it is the game of time !!

You cry and become silent ..tears flow and get dry ,
people who love you are not near and all you have is pry and try !!

Time passes and facet bend ,
and you realise that it wasn't a dead end !!

The ameliorating conditions come to you ..
and you get what destiny has stored for you ..something that you deserve in true !!

And they say it is the game of time !!

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY !!!

I have the angels in my life , 
and I call them "my friends " with pride !!

You pals have made my life worth ,
filling it with happiness , joy and trust !!

And every sorrow flies away ,
when you bring that smile with your pranky play !!

I am sure , I did some good deeds in my last birth ,
Coz I am surrounded by angels even on earth !!

I have never thanked you for all you did , 
"No sorry" ,"No Thankyou" are the rules you have build !!

I will be happy to go to hell ,
if I find you there as well!!

For all I need is your support and love ,
the tears stop and smile expand with your hug !!

I am hap , I am hap ...to have you as my friend ,
"Friend's Forever" is the message that I wanna send !!

THE SILENT GOOD BYEE

This is the last option that I am forced to try ,
The silent good byee !!  the silent good byee!!

I'll miss you more than you'll miss me ,
and with a heavy heart I am making this plea .
forgive me for making an exit from your life ,
and I don’t even know if I am wrong or right.

This is the last option that I am forced to try ,
The silent good byee !!  the silent good byee!!

I remember the vow of being “friends forever”,
And I am still the same but the time has come to turn over .
I was , I am and  will always be your friend ,
But a small change is needed and that is MY ABSENCE .

This is the last option that I am forced to try ,
The silent good byee !!  the silent good byee!!

Yes , it's difficult to implement ,
But , our paths can never meet at any end.
It’s a wise decision , and I hope you understand me ,
I am sorry for I have taken this path abruptly ..

This is the last option that I am forced to try ,
The silent good byee !!  the silent good byee!!
 

 

FEELING OF COMPUNCTION

The moment I decide , to put an end ...
Something abstruse happen and my decision bend ..

After the yesterday's fight , I decided it all..
but your lines this morning , have just turned it all ..

Why am I not able to move away from you ?
We are too far , still I feel the love is true ..

Several times you have hurted me ..
and given edacious tears in my eye ..

for I really want to egress from this phase ..
but could feel some force stopping me in this race ..

I wish , I could have melted your  selfish and stone heart ..
before you learn moral " people who come easily to us can also easily depart ".

True love is actually blind ,no matter how hard I try ..
it's difficult to hate you, the  person I love , even if I have got to know some of your terms ..

Yes , you have torn my heart apart ..
When you told me that days back you were someone's love ..

I tried to hate you , for hiding it all ...
but still couldn't come out of the love in which I have fall ..

Turning workholic , to the extent I can ..
so as to run away from your memories ..

Still the thoughts  doesn't leave me ..
and the silent tears keep trickling ..

Yes , I miss you .. Yes, I love you and I hate you too...
for making me fall in that eternal love that has just made me blue .. 


 

HOSLAAA BULAND

Aie haar tu bhi ek din haar jayegi mujhe hara hara ke ,
wo din hoga mera , phir jeet bhi aayegi mujhse milne ,
yuun toh tune bahoto ko niraash kiya hoga ,
prr shayad aaj tak na mila tujhe, koi mujhsa ajooba

sapne yuun hi nahi palko mei palte....
hai wo sahas bhi,  jo unhe poora krr saakee ...
thakna nahi , chalna hi hai mujhe toh bas ,
kabhi toh manzil aayegi hi, aur milega wo jeet ka ras .

haan waqt nahi hai aaj meraa..
prr kab tak reh sakega  wo bhi mujhse khafa ?
hrr jang ko jitna jaroori toh nahi
prr yuudh ki jeet toh hogi meri hii

sapno ke pankh nahi hua krte ,
prr wo udne ka hosla jaroor dete hain ..
dil aaj udaas hai toh kya huaa…hosle abhi bhi buland hain…
gir ke phir uthna.. aur chalte hi jana uss manzil tak hai..

EUTHANASIA OF LOVE

Yes , I am cogent enough to come out of it all,
and take a fresh start like a morning stall..

It's my problem and not your's  ..  that I love you ,
you have every right to relish even if I'm in blue ..

 And because  , partisan love always hurts ,
silly me , who couldn't distinguish the true love from the flirt ..

Yes , I am cogent enough to come out of it all,
and take a fresh start like a morning stall..

I will never fall in this love named crap ,
for I am hapless to play and win this precarious trap ..

For I can't again and again lose myself ,
for I need to be me and only me from every aspect .

Yes , I am cogent enough to come out of it all,
and take a fresh start like a morning stall..

Any ordinary person can be made special ,
It's just that true love is required and the feelings veneration !!

Yes , I am cogent enough to come out of it all,
and take a fresh start like a morning stall..

THE UNMET AND THE UNSAID LOVE

Totally unaware of when and where it happened ....
But yes .. love  has got embedded in every second ....
Unusual it is .. for I have never met  you ....
And find it next to impossible , to tell you ....
This is all I have to say about the unmet and the unsaid love 


Now I realize , why fan following is not a fortunate thing ....
It’s only your reciprocate of the feelings that can add to me some wings ....
Now I miss those sweet little conversations ....
That were carried out by us , irrespective of the time and situations ....
This is all I have to say about the unmet and the unsaid love


My happiness and sorrows start getting dependent on you ....
“CRAZY” is the word that fits the situation I am going through ....
Your refulgence and honesty has taken over me ....
Giving rise to a continuous battle of thoughts within me  ....
This is all I have to say about the unmet and the unsaid love 


Am I that worth to deserve you in my life ?
And my conscience answer  – “ He deserve a person far better than me “  .
All I can say  in a line of few words ....
For the world you may be someone , but for someone you mean the world ....
 This is all I have to say about the unmet and the unsaid love 


Those times have passed and with every passing second  I have fallen for you ....
Afraid to tell you , every bit of it .. Coz u may doubt on these lines , that are true ....
But just a single wish I have in my heart ....
That our paths cross each other and we meet at some life’s part ....
This is all I have to say about the unmet and the unsaid Love 

CHEERS TO YOUR SUCCESS

Some relations bring
                life to your lives , 
they aren't blood relations ,
                still they allegiance .

They stand by you,
               in times of sorrows ..
motivating you throughout ,
               for a bright tommorow .

And when they succeed , 
              your joys have no limits .
Becoz they are the people ,
             who accept you as it is .

For this day , when your dream ,
                has transfered to reality...
I wish you , all the luck to prosper ,
               and to maintain the alacrity ...

For , you deserve more ,
                a lot more than this .
And I really wish you get all ,
                 that you have missed .

This is a small note
                from your sister ,
as usual again I'll say -
               " Get down to earth you minister "



                                                                                           5th March 2013 

CRICKET PHOBIAAAA ....

I am sure  , you must have heard of  “ cricket fans “ , “cricket love “ , etc etc ..  but never heard of “CRICKET PHOBIA “ and that too specifically if you are a guy . Sorry , no gender bias intended but generally guys are inclined too much towards sports , races , games and so on .  On the contrary, gals are well known for  shopping , tantrums , coddles ,  fashion , TV soaps , and last but not the least  “ fan following” . On reading the title , few must me laughing with the feeling of pity  .But I hope you understand my part too ...... " A gal who is educated in a girls'  school and was never allowed to play in gully ".
Well , I guess , I am not the only one .  I wish and really hope that there are people like me who have no idea of what cricket is even when they are ready to complete the silver jubilee of their life .

 I have one embarrassing moment related to Cricket or rather a string of embarrassing moments when it comes to Cricket .
    Well ,  first among them was when once I was in office and had a laptop in my hand from which internet can be accessed ( Laying emphasis on access because in ODC i.e offshore development center we don't have access to internet or so called bahari duniyaaa . ) One colleague of mine came to me and asked for the laptop. I was busy doing some urgent piece of work and asked him to wait for 10-15 min . He requested - " Okay .. don't hand it over to me , but atleast let me know the current score of the match ". I was wondering -- " which match ?? how to see score ??" For I am really unaware of the cricket terminology of overs , sixes, fours, ball count etc etc ...I began to google ( The easy way solution for every question of ours ... that what we techie people do ) . And in the meantime ,he asked again - " Aree , btaa naa score .. itna time kyun le rhi hai ? " . His impatience prompted me to say what I didn't wanted to - " Yaar , score kaise check krte hain ? Mai google krr hi rahi hoon ". He laughed like never before and said crickinfo.com . He went on laughing the whole day and I am sure must have told the incident to few of his pals as well.


                                              Another incident  that will add cherry on  the cake of embarrassing moments  was at my friend cum mentor's party for his selection in IIT - Mumbai . He got selected long back but couldn't manage to come to Pune and celebrate the success . At the party,  he was telling us everything that he lived in last 6-7 months of his college life and who all personalities he met . He met Harsh Bhogle and was telling every tale related to that meet . Everybody started opening their mouth wide as a gesture of astonishment mixed with happiness . Looking at the faces filled with Waoooooo factor I asked them .. " Who is this Harsha Bhogle ? " and then the face expressions that were received are hard to tell .. no doubt still there was astonishment but this time it was mixed with compunction  - " Oh .. You don't know Harsha Bhogle ? " . Being the only gal in the friend circle , I had no girly auspice of sharing the same level of ignorance of Cricket . " He is the great cricket commentator "- said one of the friend (Deepak ) and I still remember the expressions of another friend Prashant ( A die hard cricket fan , who wanted to kill me at that very moment ) . These friends later got used to  to my ignorance  cum no basic knowledge of Cricket .

Well, the above incidents were not enough to make my moments embarrassing enough . The third is still in queue. I was in office and the "GULLY CRICKET " was in the air . The basic rules that we need to adhere is that there should be atleast 1 female member . I am the only girl in my team and so to bolster and play was the only option to make our  team reach the ground . I pleaded them to take another girl , for it would be not fair enough if they lose the match due to my poor performance ( An absolute 0/infinity performer) .Still they took the great risk and send my name for the match. For rehearsals , when I went to play , one of the colleague asked me to stand and do fielding .To which I replied - " Yess .. that's true that I have no idea about what cricket is .... but I know this simple line of big brothers " Jaa fielding karr , phir batting milegi " and that chance for batting never ever comes .. But to my surprise , I was giving the opportunity to bat twice ( may be the gal's reservation ) . I mean , just to motivate me to play they made me bat from both the team's side . This scenario was entirely different from the one I just told to my colleague. I tried and hit few balls as well . Although , each time they were catched perfectly by the bowler but you see something is always better then nothing . Even on hitting the ball on bat brought smiles on the faces , maybe they had low expectations already or may be I played too well , the first time itself :D

YES ... IT'S COMPLICATED ( coz u made it )

It’s we who make our life complicated. It’s we who make the life abstruse. Ambitions, success, failures are all trap and we get trapped  in them from head to toe. If we want  to be happy , then all we need to  do is introspection . We actually need to see what make us happy.

For some happiness is found in the work they do , others find it in social networking , entertainment through media . Some find that happiness in luxury item and some even find their share of happiness in making others happy . So find out yours.

My experience with life has been as banal as yours. Yes , still searching for that eternal peace of mind .Did lot of introspection …. dipped myself  thoroughly in my inner self and realized that being happy is the  easiest thing in this world . All we need to do is to be “EASY IN OUR THINKING” . We need to lay emphasis on simplicity . Now by simplicity ,I really didn’t mean that you stop being a diva , stop wearing stylish clothes ,stop being sophisticated , stop using the trendy gadgets that make life simple . A strict  No No.. to these thoughts , if they are flooding through your mind . What I mean  by simplicity is “simplicity in your  thoughts “. Stop flaunting !! Stop being pretentious!!  . You are answerable to none other than yourself.

Believe me .. if you win yourself .. you will relish the life in a complacent manner  . If  you promise yourself and cannot stick to it then  compunction will eat you from within .We really never need to have competitors .. as we have ourselves to compete . A race against ourselves is all we need to work on .And before applying this golden rule , stop yourself from being cynic because ray of hope is all that we need.

Another secret of happiness that I got to know through the introspection is that no matter how big our friend-circle is . No matter how supportive our family members are.NEVER HOLD EXPECTATIONS FROM ANYONE. You have come alone in this world . You will have to leave this world all alone  . Spend good time with everyone and help anyone and everyone who needs it  . Acquire the power and potential so that you are in the state of helping rather than being helped.

The other dimension which I want to pen down is that we get hurt when others hurt us . But is it others who are hurting us ? No. It’s we who get hurt because, it’s we who have given them the right to do so .. We meet so many people in our life , but not everyone gets close to us . We need to be really open with our minds and hearts to welcome anyone and everyone to enter our lives and similarly we need to have the open state of mind and heart when they hurt us . We should allow them to leave us when and where they want because relationships are like sand in hand . The firmer you make your grip to hold them ( the more we try to make them our own ) the more it passes away and we lose them . If someday in future , those gems of your life wish to come back to you .. welcome them as before . I may be sounding a bit philosophical and saintly figure while I am saying these lines but I woo these golden rules if implemented will gift you the eternal peace for which you have been longing so far. 

ELNATHAN DAYS ( TRAGIC BUT SWEET)

कॉलेज हुआ  ख़तम  , तोह  हुई  ये  कहानी  शुरू ..
किसे  पता  था  की  हम  बन्ने  वाले  हैं  बेरोजगारी  के  गुरु  ..

यूं  तोह  होशियार  बच्चो  में  , अपना  भी  नाम  था ..
परर  यारो  वो  placement  भी  निकला  न  कुछ   काम  का  ..

वो  भी  क्या  दिन  थे , जब  3rd year में  ही  सत्यम  ने  अपनाया ..
और  4th year में  आते   आते   , उसने   घोटाला  भी  कर  डाला

वाह  रे  वाह  राजू , तुझे  भी  यही  वक़्त  मिला  था  ??
दो  – तीन  साल  और  रुक  जाता  , घपला  करने  का  ऐसा    भी  क्या  उत्साह  था  ?

चलो  जाने  दो  ये  सब  , ये  बातें  अब    पुरानी    हुई ..
इस  सब  के  लिए  तोह   responsible  थी    , बस    टाइम  की  वो  सुई  ..

हमने  तोह  सोचा  था  , लाइफ  की  हुई  tragedy  अब  बंद  ..
पर  क्या  पता  था  की  God  ने  दिखाना   है   अभी  कुछ  और  stunt ..

सुबह  सुबह  आई  एक  कंपनी  से  call ,
बोले  –“ आप  हो  रहे  हैं  , हमारे  criteria में  fall “ !

खड़े  खड़े  वहीँ  , technical और  HR ले  लिया  ,
2 दिन  बाद  call  पर  “congrats “ कह  ,select भी   कर  लिया  !!


बहुत  सोच  – विचार  कर  , मैंने  करा  उसे   join  ,
सोचा  नौकरी  मिली  है  , अब  हाथ  में  आयेंगे  कुछ  coin .

सुना  था  शॉर्टकट  देता  है  नुक्सान ,
ये  रास्ता  भी  जितना  दिख  रहा  था  , उतना  नहीं  था  आसान  !!

दो  महीने  तोह  ट्रेनिंग  के  नाम  पे  निकल  गये  ,
उसके  बाद  जो  मजाक  हुआ  , उससे  सबके  होश  उड़  गए  !!

CEO था  जो  company का  , खुद  हमसे  meeting करने  आया ,
बोला  – “देखो  patience चाहिए , अभी  अभी   IT market का  हुआ   है  दिवाला  !!

कुछ  दिनों  में  ही  project आयेगा  , फिर  न  मिलेगा  तुम्हे  वक़्त  ,
Talented लोग  ही  रहेंगे   organisation में , बाकी  की  नौकरी  होगी  रद्द  !!

बड़ी  बड़ी  बातें  करता  था  वो  , सब   होते  थे  हैरान  ,
सपने  में  भी  न   सोचा  था   , निकलेगा  वो  ही   सबसे  बड़ा  शैतान  !!

पांच   – पांच  महीने  तक  न  मिली  हमे पगार
तब  कुछ  कुछ  समझ  आने  लगा  हमे  उसका  ये  व्यापार  !!

Bond money के  नाम  पे  ले  लिए  पैसे  सबसे  ,
सैलरी  के  इंतज़ार  में  सब  रह  गए  तरसते  !!

कुछ  लोगो  ने  आन्दोलन  के  लिए  आवाज़  उठायी  ,
पर  बाकी  लोगो  ने  अपनी  झूटी  आशा   से  , वो  आवाज़  दफनाई  !!

फिर  एक  दिन  ऐसा  भी  आया  , जब  सब  सच  था  सबके  सामने  ,
वो  जगह  , जिससे  कहते  थे  office , खाली  होने  लगा  अचानक  से   ,

ये  सारा  किस्सा  सुनने  में  तोह  लग  रहा  होगा   रोमांचाक ,
पर  कितना  tragic था ये   सब  , वाहा  होते  तोह  समझते   ये  सच !!

इस  बड़े  से  मज़ाक  में  , बस  एक  ही  सच  सुहाना  था ..
शायद  , कुछ  अच्छे   से  लोगो  को  एक  दुसरे  से  GOD  को  मिलवाना  था ..

वहां  ऐसे  दोस्त  बन  गए  , जो  “FRIENDS FOREVER” बन  गए  ,
दूर  भले  ही  है  आज  , पर एक  नया  connection जोड़  चले  !!

BYEE !! BYEE!!

Tick tick as I hear the clock moving, it seems as if the time is running a race against itself, something touching my heart beats and some unknown fear is surrounding me .The day is here, when I’ll have to again leave my parents, my sweet home and go to the state where neither my culture nor my people are there.  The jovial me is lost in some deep thoughts .Some unknown sadness has started making place within me. Ohh ..it’s just 11 pm , I need to sleep , so as to wake up early and board the train , but it seems the mind is non –stop thinking and the sleep has lost somewhere .  I wish I could be boorish  with my mother , so that I could depart myself from the miseries of missing her , but that is something next to impossible . These thoughts are running in my mind and didn’t realise when I fell asleep amidst all this .

<woke up next morning >  Ohh .. noo.. the day is finally here , when I’ll have to pack my bags , and start the journey to my workplace . Osshhh .. a mistake , bags are already packed , they were packed yesterday by mom . She always complains for my habit of saying “NO “ to every eatable which she packs , with a reason  - “ It’s going to be too heavy , I’ll have to manage 3 bags already and if u add these eatables too , then the count of bags will be raised to 4” .Still she insists to make some place here and there and add some ladoos and almonds . For that is why, the mothers are called the angels on earth .As the moment to say bye is coming near, my heart is beating faster and faster. Again from tomorrow, there would be no angel around me . No one would pamper me all day long and off course none who would listen to all my stories, gossips (all with the centre element ‘I’).Thinking all this , I carry my laptop bag to the car , and as I sit , I realise the final moment is here . “Byee mom “- I said and the tears trickled down. I just ran out of the car and gave her a big hug .   “Ohh Gosh , we are late , make it fast “ said my dad . And as  usual I am late for the train , but my father knows how to handle this situation very  well , and like any movie hero , he ‘ll take  all shortcuts to reach just on time and as usual he know every little detail of the train like which platform, where the AC coach exactly stops etc etc . So,  we have reached the platform , and as my father and I are waiting for the train , I can see many other fathers , who have come to drop their daughters. Suddenly, those old memories of time  started coming to my head ;  when my father used to drop me to station almost in every 15 days as the college was near . I used to leave half of my things at home, thinking that even if required, dad would come to my college’s city . Yes , the situation of college days and today is so much similar ,  yet so different. Then I used to console my heart saying – it’s just 2 weeks and I’ll be back .. I didn’t realise how those college days turned to working days and the time gap increased from 2 weeks to 6 months  and while I am lost in  those thoughts of years , I suddenly hear the engine shunting and moving towards me . My  dad ( undoubtedly, the best dad in the world  ) is making all possible arrangements to comfort his little daughter ( though actually a grown young  girl ) who will always  be  a little princess to him no matter how old she grow . Saying byee to Mom was off course difficult but what is even more difficult is to say byee to Dad ,but I have to …though don’t want to , but still in a dissembling way I said  – “ Byee Daddy “ !

THE ALIVE SPIRIT

It isn't easy to stick a smile on a face ,
that too when I have come last in a race!!

Though I have everyone's sympathy ,
but none can understand the phase I am  going through !!

I'll win or not , the next race is still in question ,
but I'll attempt again is something , I need not to mention !!

It isn't easy to stick a smile on a face ,
that too when I have come last in a race!!


I don't want to be an epitome of patience for anyone ,
but I cannot afford the pleasure of "giving up"!!


There are many people who'll suggest me to move on ,
but belive me , its not something , that I had a crush on !!

It isn't easy to stick a smile on a face ,
that too when I have come last in a race!!

I don't say , I am nothing if I lose this  race ,
but yes ,that defeat will always be there somewhere on my face !!

It's easy to mold my path , and choose a different destination ,
but I'll lose myself forever , if I take  this decision in moment of tension !!


It isn't easy to stick a smile on a face ,
that too when I have come last in a race!!

------------------------------------------------------------(c) 10/1/2013